JIM'S PAGE

Welcome to Jim's Web Page. It has been provided to keep people updated as Jim begins his battle with a very rare form of Cancer call Pseudomyxoma Peritonei or PMP. PMP is a slow growing cancer that effects the peritoneal area or lining of the abdominal cavity. I will do my best to keep the page updated so that our family and friends can follow Jim has he enbarkes on the biggest journey of his life. We would like to thank all of our family and friends for their support and being there with us as our family faces yet another difficult time. If this is the first time visiting Jim's page, you can get up to date with what has been going on by reading my past journal enteries and please don't forget to sign the guest book so that we know you were here!

Journal

Friday, May 29, 2009 7:59 AM CDT

I can't believe how long it's been since I updated Jim's page! Once we got back from Disney, life got crazy busy again. We had an amazing time on our trip. Lots of great fun and lots of memories! Brianna was a princess and she loved every minute of it!

This has been an extremely difficult week for me. Sunday will be the one year anniversary of Jim's death. One year I can't believe it. One year since I have seen him, held his hand and told him how much I love him. It just doesn't seem real that it's been that long. I still miss him every day. This week has been espcially hard. I thought I was doing well.....I guess I am...but I have been caught off guard with my emotions this week. Once minute I am fine, the next I am a bucket of tears. I keep thinking back to what I was doing this time last year. Remembering the hurt and pain in watching Jim suffer so badly. Still a year later I struggle with WHY? Why did this happen to him. Why is my daughter without her Dad, my stepkids without their dad, my grandkids without their grandpop. His sisters without their brother? My mother-in-law without her son? Why. I am not sure that I will ever figure that out as long as I live. It just kills me when I think about what he went through. I keep looking at my daughter and wishing that he was here to see how much she has grown and what a wonderful little girl she is growing into. I hope that I am doing this right. There is no training manual for this. I keep looking at my grandkids and wishing that Jim was here to see how much they have changed and what amazing kids they are becoming. My Robert just asked me the other day if I miss grandpop like he does? I said yes, buddy, everyday. He said, I miss him too Grandmom...It made me sad but also happy that they kids haven't forgotten. Makes me so sad to think about all of the things that Jim is missing....Kindergarden graduation...leaving for first grade for the first time....and this is only the beginning. But we are also healing...moving forward....which is what I know Jim would have wanted. God I hope I am doing this right....

I have been given some serious thought to ending my journal entries soon. I think that it is time. It would have been so much more difficult to survive this ordeal without Caringbridge. It helped me keep everyone informed but it also was very theraputic for me. Writing here helped me deal with a lot of my own emotions. Just putting down in print what you are feeling sometimes helps so much. For those of you who have followed our journey...thank you. Thank you for all of your love and support over the past 4 1/2 years. I will still be around and I can be reached through email at Jaimee1010@aol.com. I am also on Facebook if anyone wants to stay in touch. Thank you again so much for all of your love and support. I will most likely write one more time after this weekend.

I also wanted to remind everyone about the PMP walk on Father's Day. You can check my previous journal entry for the details or write to me. Anyone who wants to join me, please, please do so! In preparation for the walk, I was interviewed with the walk's founder, my friend Judy. It will be airing on Channel 10 some time in the next week or two. I will post when I know exactly when it will air.

Again, thanks so much for all of your support...

Love,

Aimee

Hospital Information:

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Aimee's Cell Phone 484-486-4531/Jim's Cell Phone 610-656-2546

Links:

E-mail Author: Jaimee1010@aol.com, briannaashleysmom@yahoo.com,LAWDIZ@AOL.COM

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